Well Eye Be Damned

“Oh God! Why do the ALWAYS show boring drama programmes in here?” lamented the Kevin the teenager standing behind me in the queue at for the reception at the eye clinic.  His mum mumbled something to him.  I was about to turn around and extol the virtues of Doctors when it was my turn to do my pre-flight checks.  One I had finished, Kevin had disappeared.

After my eye check, I was led through to the main waiting area.  As always it was packed.  Whole families seemed to be there to find out about Nana’s or Grandad’s cataract or glaucoma.  On the goggle-box was some weird Australian drama set in the 1960’s.  It reminded me of those Australian dramas in the late 80’s like The Sullivan’s and Sons and Daughters were more attention was paid to write a catchy theme tune rather than on any plot.

I was trying to get my head around about what was going on, when a doctor I had never seen before, called me through.  I walked in the room and sat down.  He sat by the computer and started to read my notes.  The door was still wide open.  I got up and shut it.  I had a bad feeling about this.  We sat in silence as he spent a good five minutes reading my notes.  Five minutes is a long time to be sat in complete silence.  He examined my eye.  It was clear he wasn’t happy.  He asked me who I had seen in the eye clinic.  I listed practically half the doctors in the eye clinic.  He frowned, He informed me that the doctor who had closed my eye was in clinic today so maybe it would be better if I saw her.  Pass the buck.  Nice.

Back to the waiting room I returned.  It was now that daytime stalwart Escape to the Country.  The budget was £1.5 million.  Completely realistic to the patients in the waiting room at the eye clinic.  I was midway through being shown a six-bed detached house in Cambridgeshire, complete with indoor and outdoor swimming pool, when I was called through, I have a good relationship with this doc.  It’s very professional and she is very efficient in what she does.  She wasn’t happy.  The ulcer behind the part of my eye that was sewn up, had gone.  However, in the part that was exposed, the ulcer was worse.  She asked if I was OK if the Prof had a look.

Prof 2 came in.  He’s very calm and serene, just what you need in someone who is fiddling with your eye.  He had a gander and spoke to medical gobbledegook to my doctor.  From my viewings of various medical dramas, I understood snippets.  Samples had to be taken for cultures.  He left, and the doctor checked if I knew what was going to happen.  Vaguely.  She clarified by saying that they would be taking samples of the ulcer for testing.  They were also going to give me much stronger antibiotics.  I would come back in a weeks’ time and if I hadn’t got better, I would be admitted to have antibiotics intravenously.  Crikey.  We had gone up a notch.

After the samples were taken and I had waited for an hour in pharmacy for the antibiotics, I arrived home to a letter from Prof 1 at the Marsden.  He had written to me, my GP and my oncologist to let them know what was happening.  He said that it was a pleasure to see me.  Could I use that as a reference on my CV, I wondered?  He also said the R-word.  He said the I was “in remission on maintenance Herceptin”.  Yes, I’ll take that.


Made in Chelsea

Another year had rolled by. It was time for my yearly check in with the Prof at the Royal Marsden.  The Royal Marsden has hospitals at two sites.  The larger of the hospitals is about fifteen miles from London in Sutton.  The other hospital, where the Prof lives is in Chelsea in central London.

Chelsea is famous for two things.  Their all-conquering Premier League football team and the TV show Made in Chelsea.  I have a confession.  I have never seen Made in Chelsea.  From what I can gather it’s a scripted reality programme documenting the lives of various rich, young people who live in Chelsea.  These people have weird names like Binky and Minnie and even more bonkers love lives.  I try to avoid programmes like this.  It’s not from a snobby point of view.  It’s because I know I will get completely hooked on Binky’s latest palaver that I will forget to get on with my own life.

I arrived at the Marsden and went to check in.  The waiting room at the Marsden is by far the worse waiting I have been in.  And I have been in a lot of waiting rooms.  Of course, it was packed with everyone eyeing everyone else suspiciously.  I went through the pre-flight checks with the receptionist after which she told me to go to small waiting room.

“Small waiting room?”

“Yes.  It’s just down the corridor, on the left.”

Down the corridor I went becoming more anxious the further I went.  Finally, there was an open door.

“Urm… is this the small waiting room?”

I was assured it was and sat down.  I looked at my fellow compadres and knew I was in the right place.  Opposite me was a man, wearing a black eye patch on his right eye, with his wife.  Next to them was another man with a droopy mouth like mine.  Finally, next to me was another couple with another man with an eye patch.  Yes, these were my people.

We sat there flicking through old OK magazines when the man opposite gasped.  The Prof appeared and quickly went into the room opposite accompanied by two flustered looking registrars.  No minions today.  We were all going to get the real deal.

After a while, the woman next to me started huffing.  She was reading an OK magazine about Cheryl Cole/Fernandez Versini/ Tweedy and Liam One Direction’s marvellous life.  It obviously wasn’t much cop.  She began whispering angrily at her husband.  He just nodded and folded his arms.

A nurse appeared in the doorway.

“Anna Read?”

The daggered looks I got was unreal.  This had broken all waiting room protocol.  I was last in and first out! Outrageous!  I followed the nurse out from the glares and she led to me another room.

“Professor H will see you shortly.”

I sat and started fiddling with my phone.  It had got to fifteen minutes and still no sign.  I What’s App-ed my family.  Should I go and say something? NO came the reply from my sister, who worked in the NHS.  That is a big no-no.  It would only delay them further as they were probably reading my notes.  I sighed and began to read the kilograms to imperial conversion weight chart on the wall.

After another ten minutes, the Prof rushed in with his two minions.  The two minions turned out to be two oncologists from Spain.  They seemed genuinely interested in my case.  We had a chat, and all was good.

“In my opinion I think if it aint broke don’t fix it eh?” said the Prof looking at the two bewildered medics.

“What I mean is that if the Herceptin is working, it would be madness to stop it.  You are very lucky Anna.  If you presented to me now, there is no way you would get the funding for this.”

I was a bit taken aback by this.  You like to think that life in five years would be better than life now.  When it comes to health care, it’s more nuanced.  Sure, there have been huge advances.  People are living longer than before.  The changes in cancer treatment and the research in finding new drugs and other medication is staggering.  This is all amazing but it’s the distribution of these treatments where its going backwards.  Who is responsible for that? Is it the state or the individual?  I know the Prof would like to treat as many people as he could, whether they be a rich, hedge fund manager or an elderly former miner.  All should be equal as far as he is concerned.  But pure economics doesn’t work like that.  It’s all about supply and demand.  Not many people have an HER2 positive tumour in their head like me so there isn’t the funding.  This model fails to acknowledge that it’s because of the treatment, I have been a fully functional member of society for the last five years.  I have also been paying taxes for that long too.  The brutal truth, is if it wasn’t for the treatment, I would be dead.

The Prof could tell I was looking anxious.

“Look.  You are doing really well.  I don’t think you need to make another appointment to see me next year.  Just call my secretary as and when you need to see me.”

He smiled, bid farewell and left the room.  Weirdly this is a good thing.  This means that he believes that the treatment that I’m on will be fine at least for another year.  I smiled as I made my way to the V&A for my yearly mooch around before my train back to Nottingham.  Maybe things weren’t that bad after all.



Eye we go again…

The following week I was back.  I was running low on antibiotics.  As I checked into eye casualty, the cheery nurse who saw me last time walked past.

“Good to see you again, Anna!”

It’s never good, to be on first name terms with the triage nurse, no matter how lovely she is.  After about an hour I was called through.  The doctor was obviously a bit intimidated with my brush with the professor.  He gave me a prescription for more antibiotics and the professor’s secretary phone number.  I was to call her and chase up my appointment with him.  I needed to see him pronto.

This is the thing that shocks people the first time they encounter healthcare for the first time.  The emphasis is firmly on you to chase up appointments, know what medication you are on, when your last scan was and the result of it and a whole myriad of information about you.  It becomes a bit of a test.  In every appointment there is always one bit of information that I have forgotten.  It’s when you see the doctor roll their eyes at this that it hurts a little bit.  I’m not bothered though.  In fact I feel a little flattered that the doctors have shared me a little into their secret world.  It’s the people like the woman I saw in eye casualty walking with two canes.  She was with her son, who was about my age and with obvious learning difficulties. They both needed to see doctors in eye casualty.  It’s those vulnerable people that you worry if they can keep track on what is going on.

The next day, I tried the secretary.  Voicemail.  I left a really long annoying voice mail.  If I was the secretary and heard the message I left, there would be no way I would call back that crazy woman.  I needed another plan.  The next day I decided to call every fifteen minutes until someone picked up.  After the fourth phone call, she picked up.  I told the sorry story in complete grovelling mode.  It worked.  The prof had a slot in his Wednesday clinic.  I was squeezed in.

On Wednesday I went prepared.  The last time I had seen him, he had been an hour late.  So I was armed with a Costa latte, a chocolate cookie and a magazine.  I was in for the long haul.  I had just made myself comfortable when I was called through, ten minutes before my appointment time.  This was most irregular.  It wasn’t the prof, but a doctor I had seen before during my forays into eye casualty.  She looked in my eye.  It wasn’t good.  My eye needed to be closed permanently to clear the ulcer.  This needed to be done asap or I could lose my left eye.  She said she would talk to the prof to admit me for day surgery as soon as there was space.

On the way home I missed a call.  The voicemail left told me that I was to have this surgery the following Monday.  Crikey.  Fasten your seat belts people.

Monday rolled around.  Over the weekend I had contracted an awful cold/flu/cough virus thing.  Although I didn’t have temperature, I had a hacking cough and no appetite whatsoever.  What would happen?  Would they turn me away?  I turned up at the Eye Day Surgery Clinic bang on 7:30am, like everyone else who need day eye surgery that day.  What was clear was that I was by far, the youngest in the waiting room.  Because of this, I was eyed with suspicion.  I was called through by the nurse.  She went through what was happening and reassured me that my cold/flu/cough thing wouldn’t affect anything in the slightest.  As she showed me back to the waiting room, we saw the doctor I had seen in the eye clinic.  She would be performing the surgery not the prof.

“Because you are the youngest person, I’ll be doing you last this morning.  So you can go, have breakfast and come back here at 10:30am.”

Grateful for my slight reprise, I skipped out the clinic onto the joys of Costa.  I checked the time.  It was 8:30am.  Two hours to kill in the hospital.  What to do?

After having a very slow latte and micro reading the day’s paper, I slowly ventured back to the clinic.  They were relatively happy that I had come back.  I saw another nurse and signed the consent form.

“Would you like to go the waiting room with the TV in?”

I said I would.  When we got there, there was indeed a TV showing the Winter Olympics, but also a stressed looking man.  Turned out unlike me, he hadn’t been given a freedom pass and had been stuck in this tiny room, not knowing what was happening.  He was also younger than me.  I told him what I had been told about my age and he rolled his eyes.

“Why couldn’t they have told me that?  That would have been better than hanging around here for the last three hours.”

And that my friends is the problem.  Communication.  If we, as patients are told what is happening, stress levels are reduced.  This poor man had been too scared to even to go to the loo for fear that he would miss having his name called.  I gave him permission to finally go and once he had been, we both chilled out to watch the bobsleigh.

I can’t say how long I waited in that tiny room but eventually, I was called through.  The surgery didn’t take that long.  About half an hour.  But there was something missing.  It was only afterwards, when I was having my post op complimentary cup of tea and custard cream (thank you UK taxpayer) that I realised what it was.  When I had had similar surgery last year, the radio had been playing in the operating theatre.  The song that was playing was Rod Stewart “If You Think I’m Sexy…”, quite possibly the most inappropriate song for such an occasion.  Yet this is what was missing.  There was no distraction.  Just medical gobbledigook between the doctor and her med student.

“You look a bit sad.”  said the nurse, as she handed over my drugs and follow up appointment.

“I’m fine.  Just glad it’s over.”

Red Eye Kitchen Nightmare

It all began last Wednesday.  I was running late for work.  I jogged the dog round the block for her morning toileting.  When I got back, my husband was long gone so I grabbed my bag and ran.  It wasn’t until lunchtime that I noticed.  I had left the eye ointment that I have to apply to my left eye every two hours, on the kitchen worktop, next to the dog lead.  Still, I wasn’t in any pain, so maybe I got away with it.

The next day it was clear that I hadn’t.  I went into ointment overdrive, trying to overcompensate for the mistake I had made.  It was too late.  The damage had been done.  With a heavy heart I called eye casualty.  Just keep applying the ointment and if it gets worse, pop in said the nurse.  No one ever pops into casualty.

My eye got progressively worse during the week.  We tried taping it up at night, applying ointment every hour to no avail.  Casualty beckoned.  On my way to the hospital I began to listen to Desert Island Discs on Radio 4.  The person who was shipwrecked was Angela Hartnett, a top chef who was a protégé of Gordon Ramsey.  Kirsty Young was trying to get her to comment on why they were few top chefs that were female.  Angela was quite guarded about this but said the situation was improving.  Her time with Ramsey sounded brutal.  Although she had kind words for the man himself, the hours were a killer.  She worked from 6:30am until midnight for six days a week with half an hour for lunch if she was lucky.  The rest of the chefs took bets on how long she would last.  The top one was three weeks.  She stayed for a year.  So much energy for a plate of food.

There was a long queue for the reception when I got to eye casualty.  I wasn’t feeling optimistic.  After about half an hour I was called through by a glamourous looking nurse.  We did the usual pre-flight checks.  To my surprise she knew all my medical history. Yes, she knew of the facial nerve surgery and the surgery in October.  She was also horrified I was expected to apply the ointment to my eye every two hours.  This was a first.

She sent me round to have photos taken of my eye and led me to another waiting room.  The TV was showing the US version Ramsey Kitchen Nightmares.  My second encounter with Mr Ramsey that morning.  His target was a seafood restaurant in New Orleans owned by two warring brothers, each blaming the other for its woes.  Ramsey was doing his usual, but I noticed something.  He wasn’t doing that much.  He was a rope provider and getting those who ran the restaurant to hang themselves on that rope.  They were just about to close the kitchen down, when I was called through for my pics to be taken.

Once they were done, it was back to eye casualty where I rather enthusiastically announced my arrival to the receptionist. I took my seat to await the doctor’s verdict.  After fifteen minutes I was called through to see a consultant.  She was surprised to learn that my next outpatient appointment wasn’t until March and bumped me up to go in next Wednesday.  She also gave good advice on how to tape up my eye and apply the ointment more effectively.  In her opinion, the October op hadn’t worked, and my eye would needed to be stitched up again.  But my consultant in eye outpatients would have the final call on that.  I wasn’t too downhearted by this.  I just wanted not to keep getting red eyes.

When I left, I checked my watch.  I had been done and dusted in less than two hours.  The NHS can work, if you see the right people who know how to solve your medical issue.  The problem is that we are losing these right people.  The fact that they are usually working the hours that Gordon Ramsey and co worked at their peak, may have something to do with it.

Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency

Wednesday morning started normally enough.  I contracted a weird stomach bug over the Christmas limbo period between Christmas and New Year.  My body was sending signals that I was going to be sick.  Once I got to the bathroom, these symptoms would subside into either a hot flush or a cold shiver.  All very odd.  The bug now progressed so now at five am on Wednesday morning, I was awoken by a horrendous spat of heart burn.  Awake and not feeling too great, I pressed in my headphones and switched on my portable digital radio.

It was tuned to Five Live.  I quite like Five Live.  I find that its shouty tone keeps me at the right level of consciousness in the morning while other radio stations tend to send me to sleep.  As the financial programme gave way to the breakfast show, the main story of the day got me interested.  Please get in contact if you have had any experience of your hospital outpatient appointment being cancelled.  Well that was me alright.  I was due to see Mr Q on 12th December.  A few days before I got a letter cancelling it and asking me to come on 19th December.  Then the Friday before the 19th, another letter came cancelling that and asking me to come on 9th January.  This had been a nightmare to coordinate work wise.

However, these were only appointments, not actual operations.  Before this appeal I had heard a terrible story of a guy having his hip operation cancelled twice.  He was obviously in a lot of pain.  Yet it was the nurse afterwards who said that it was the cancellation of out patients’ appointments that would create even more problems for the NHS over the winter period.

Partly inspired by her, I texted in briefly saying my story.  About a minute later I got a call from a harassed researcher asking if I could speak, live on the radio, in five minutes.  OK I guess.  Before me spoke a very eloquent junior doctor.  He summed up perfectly in far better language than I ever could, the problems with the NHS this winter.  I was being lined up as a disgruntled patient to counter his agreement.  I took a deep breathe, highlighted my story and agreed with the junior doctor.  At the end I had changed from being disgruntled to being reasonable.  You can’t say better than that!  So off I went to walk the dog.

When I returned, I was treated to an unusual sight.  My husband was being nice to someone on the phone.  My husband is usually nice to people on the phone who he knows.  However, if you are a stranger, be afraid.  Be very afraid.  The person he was being nice to was someone called Fiona from BBC News at One.  He passed me over. She was calling to see if I wouldn’t mind doing a piece to camera about my situation.  I looked around.  My husband was still in his dressing gown and about to start a fry up.  The night before, he had decided to complete dismantle his wardrobe and reorganise his clothing.  The house was covered in his clothes and soon would be smelling of fried food.  I said to Fiona it would be better if we could do the story in Nottingham rather than at my house.  She said that could work as she could use a crew from BBC Nottingham.  We chatted a bit more and she said she would call back to confirm a location.

True to her word, about half an hour later, she called back and told me to go to BBC Nottingham and ask for Miles at reception.  BBC Nottingham is near a huge traffic island in Nottingham.  When I arrived, the receptionist was expecting me and buzzed Miles.  Miles was a cheery chap and said that he had spoken to the Premier Inn over the road.  The plan was that I could have a coffee there and we would have a chat.  So off we set with Boris the cameraman in tow to the Premier Inn.

The Premier Inn had a good outlook.  It’s located next to the canal in Nottingham.  The only problem Boris had was trying to position the camera so you couldn’t see any graffiti.  The actual interview lasted about twenty minutes.  They quickly scootered off telling that it would be on the regional news programme, East Midlands Today, and could be picked up nationally, but there was no guarantee.

I got home, had some lunch and tuned in.  The headline story was about the winter pressures on the NHS. The first item and there was me, supping my coffee at the Premier Inn, talking about my story. Un-bel-iev-able!  The reason I think they chose it was visually, you can tell I need an operation.  Also, I’m young.  It’s a sad fact that I think if I was an old lady awaiting a hip op, I don’t think they would have picked it up.  There was a longer piece on East Midlands Today about it and that was that.

Then the phone rang.  It was BBC Nottingham.  Could I come in and be interviewed for Drive Time?  I made my way in and said my piece.  On the drive back, I nearly crashed my car when I heard myself again talking on Radio 4 about my situation.  This was getting ridiculous.

When I got home, my husband was catching up on Dirk Gently’s Holistic Detective Agency.  For the uninitiated, Dirk Gently is the creation of writing genius Douglas Adams.  To explain what happens is near impossible.  You just have to watch it, end of.  I love Douglas Adams.  The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy is a work of genius.  Its authoritative tone makes the implausible, plausible.  Of course, Volgon poetry is the worst in the galaxy and Slartibartfast designed the Norwegian coastline.  How could you not know that?

Dirk Gently goes way further.  My mum bought me the book when I was about twelve and it defeated me.  The Beeb made a TV series of it.  It worked quite well.  Dirk was an annoying tramp like character who lived in his car always with some Brie in his pocket for emergencies.  In the American version on Netflix, he’s a lot cleaner cut, thankfully still British and strangely asexual unlike the British Dirk who is a right sleaze.

The plot is complicated to put it mildly.  It involves time travel, characters changing to animals and vice versa.  Keep you eye on that kitten is all I’m saying.  It seemed a completely appropriate programme to get lost in after the bonkers day I had had.  It had felt like I had stepped through a wormhole into another universe of deadlines, the search of a human angle and I’m not sure it was a world I liked.

By Friday the eye of the news had moved.  The NHS didn’t get a look in.  An awful rapist had been released on parole, Donald Trump was battling away with Steve Bannon and even worse, the government was threatening to put 25p on take away coffee cups.  The winter crisis was now on the back burner.  For now, anyway….

Eye, Eye Part 2

06:29am – I took my last sip of coffee and went to prod my husband.  As he slowly got ready, I took the hound for a walk around the block.  Right, got my bag with dressing gown, slippers, Kindle, portable radio and off we went.  My husband completely changes personality when he gets behind a wheel of a car.  In that respect we are complete opposites.  I shove on Radio 4 and calmly glide around in my car sending everyone within the car to sleep.  My husband becomes a man possessed. The road is his and his only.  Woe betide anyone who gets in his way.  Thankfully as we were making our journey to the QMC at ten to seven in the morning, we wouldn’t encounter too many feud inducing incidents.  We were going smoothly until we were five minutes away from the hospital.

“Main Entrance or ENT?”

“ENT, if it’s possible…”

He indicated to turn left into a filter lane.  The swanky black Audi didn’t see us and swished by honking its horn.  The red rag had now been thrown.  We followed the black Audi down the road towards ENT with expletives raining down.  The Audi turned into the staff parking area.

“You idiot! That was probably the surgeon!”

My husband went quiet.  He pulled round into the drop off zone and gave me my bag from the boot.  We hugged and kissed.  And off he went to encounter more road rage demons.

I made my way to the lift and waited with a nervous looking couple.  It turned out they were going to same ward as me.

“Great minds eh?”

But you could see they weren’t in the mood for jokes.  When we got there, we were ushered into a bay.  This is where I lost my sense of humour.  There were six recliner chairs in bay, each with their own table, chair and cupboard.  It was just like chemo.  My blood ran cold.  I shook myself awake, sat in the chair and tried not to catapult myself out of it by fiddling with its remote control.  Once I got into a comfortable seating position I flicked on the Kindle and waited.

After an hour a rather handsome doctor appeared and shook my hand.  His name was Roberto and he asked me what I was doing there.  I explained. He agreed that what I said was correct.  He drew a black arrow over my left eye and left.

About twenty minutes after him, came a jolly anaesthetist.  She was a bit concerned.  She felt I needed a general anaesthetic rather than heavy sedation.  Fine by me.  She was also worried about my mouth.  It didn’t open very wide.  This meant that they wouldn’t be able to put a breathing tube down through my mouth, it would have to go via my nose.  Although she didn’t say anything, she left me to draw my own conclusions about this.  It didn’t sound pretty…

Finally, a nurse came with a gown, surgical stockings and some red Totes Toastie socks.  I changed into these and waited.  Then Patrick arrived.  He was the porter who would be taking me up to theatre.  He didn’t have a wheelchair but said he would walk me up.  I put my dressing gown on over my hospital gown and followed Patrick.

“So, what should you be doing now then eh?” he asked

“Teaching English.”

We had quite a detailed conversation about apostrophes, like you do. When we got to the theatre waiting area, there was an annoying American ghost hunter programme on the wall mounted TV.  I was about to ask for the remote, when Mrs T appeared, scrubbed up.  She seemed in a good mood.  Yes, I was going to have a general and she explained in gruesome detail exactly what she was going to do.

After she left, the jolly anaesthetist appeared and took me to a broom cupboard.  In the broom cupboard was a trolley surrounded by every drug imaginable.  We went through the pre-flight checks and I had a huge urge to go to the loo.  I blurted this out and one of the anaesthetist said

“I’m so glad you said that because I’m dying to go too!”

She took me back through some double doors, through a whole waiting room of people to the loos.  When we were done, we streaked through the waiting room and back into the broom cupboard.  Before I knew it, a cannula had been put in and one of the anaesthetist was coming towards my nose with a long tube.

“Right.  We’re going to give you some medication that will make you feel slightly drunk.  Then you need to drink this.”

It was some red liquid and it tasted vile.  While I was drinking it, they squirted a huge dose of local anaesthetic up my nose.  Then came the tube.  Then blackness.

Eye, eye! Part 1

It was Goose Fair time yet again.  That could only mean one thing.  The Park and Ride was out of action.  I had an appointment at the QMC for 8:30am for my pre- op chat.  Now because of Goose Fair, my usual route in was blocked. Normally I park at the Park and Ride and glide in by tram. In my usual parking space was a tall tower with capsules at either end.  The tower would spin vertically while the capsules would rotate to much screaming inside.  I don’t think my eye appointment would be quite so adrenaline pumping.  But you never know…

So how to get to the QMC?  Driving, like for most of hospitals up and down the land, was out of the question.  My husband mentioned I could always park in the special, secret parking space.  Everyone who regularly goes to a hospital has one of these.  My husband’s one was about a fifteen-minute walk from the hospital.  Plus, I don’t think it was that secret anymore. So, what to do?

Another reason why I was also feeling anxious was also due to my appointment letter.  I had a purge of burning my hospital appointment letters after the barrage of MRI scans that I had in September.  In the purge, I had foolishly burnt the appointment letter for my eye op.  Not to worry.  The hospital sent me a text reminding me of the appointment.  However, the text said I had an appointment at the QMC at 8:30am.  Where in the QMC, the text couldn’t tell me.

“Go and ask at reception.” Said my husband.

“But what about data protection?”

“It’s YOUR data for Christ’s sake!”

Good point.

So, I arrived by magic carpet at the QMC and ventured to the reception by the Main Entrance.  They were perfectly happy telling me where my appointment was. We did the usual pre-flight checks.

“Ooooo… summer of ’76 eh? That were a hot one…” said the receptionist who then preceded to tell me her memories of it.  The only thing I contributed to the conversation was, “I think I spent most of it in my nappy.” which wasn’t great.

Anyway, my appointment was in eye outpatients so off I trotted.  When I got there, I was met by a queue of five people and a harassed looking receptionist, searching files.  All of the five people in front of me had appointment letters.  Not good.  The man in front of me in the queue was smartly dressed, wearing a blazer with and RAF pin on the lapel.  I’m not too sure what he was expecting from the eye clinic, but I had the feeling that he might be disappointed.

My turn came and I was shooed around the corner to the pre- assessment part of the clinic.  I went around the corner and was greeted by a huge, empty waiting area.  On the far wall was a huge TV showing Heartbeat.  Strange choice for half eight in the morning.  After about five minutes, a professional woman in a business suit appeared.

“I’m afraid the clinic doesn’t open until nine.”

“Well, my appointment is for half eight.”

“That can’t be possible.”

“Well… it is.”

I was dreading the obvious next question regarding a letter.  But I was saved by a jolly looking nurse.

“Oh! You must be my first appointment.  Please take a seat and I’ll just get my bits together.”

I smiled smugly and the woman bustled off.

Soon I was shown into a small windowless room.  My height and weight was measured as was my blood pressure and temperature.  She asked me a lot of questions as to whether I had any illnesses that I had never heard of.  The life-threatening illness I did have wasn’t mentioned at all.  It soon raised its ugly head when the topic of regular medication came up.  She believed Herceptin wouldn’t affect the sedative.  Phew.

She described what would happen on the day.  I would check in, have the op and then recover on the ward.  Once I had eaten and passed urine after the op, I was then free to go.  As I would be wearing a gown, she strongly recommended that I bring in a dressing gown and a pair of slippers.  The way she described it, it sounded like a visit to the day spa in Centre Parcs, rather than an operation.  Here’s hoping….

The discussion took a strange turn when she outlined what happened after the op.  For twenty-four hours after the op I couldn’t drive, use heavy machinery, use electrical items like kettles or microwaves or sign any legal documentation.  Urm OK…

“Do you have a responsible adult at home to look after you after your op?”

I snorted.

“Well there is my husband…”

You could tell she had heard this joke many times before.  I didn’t need to finish the punchline.  I signed something to say that I had understood what was going on and off I went.  Spa day at Centre Parcs.  That’s all it was…